The Goddess Raises Her Voice

The Divine Feminine, which has been repressed and maligned for thousands of years under patriarchal domination, is now re-emerging. At this Gemini Full Moon, we can hear the voices of several goddess archetypes as they participate in a complex configuration called a Mystic Rectangle. The Goddess is raising her voice and we can hear Her message carried on the high tide of the Full Moon. Let’s consider what’s being expressed at each of the four points that mark out the corners of this Mystic Triangle, which are in the signs of Gemini, Sagittarius, Aries, and Libra.

(1) The Gemini Moon is curious and wants more and more information. In Gemini’s quest for understanding, it can sometimes be overly influenced by the ideas, beliefs, and opinions of others. When Gemini is functioning well, it helps you formulate your own ideas so you can find your own voice.

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Lilith

(2) Illuminating the full face of this Gemini Moon is the Sun in Sagittarius. Sagittarius is clear about its direction and purpose, and is not shy about sharing its perspective on things, especially when joined by wise old Saturn, who can sometimes be a bit opinionated and overbearing. Teaming up with the Sun and Saturn is an interesting trio of goddesses: Juno, Lilith, and Hygeia.

Hygeia helps us maintain a sense of well-being, and in Sagittarius, our well-being is connected to being about our mission in life, seeking the Truth, and speaking our truth.

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Hygeia

While the patriarchal view casts Juno as the “good wife” and Lilith as the “nasty woman” who is untamed, fiercely independent, and freely expressive of her sexuality, I see this pairing of Juno and Lilith in a different light. As Juno and Lilith walk arm in arm, we can partner cooperatively and harmoniously with others (Juno) who share our mission AND we can maintain our autonomy, stay wild at heart, and have exciting adventures in our quest for Truth (Lilith).

(3) Now let’s look at the third point of this Mystic Rectangle, which is in the sign of volcano_lightning-nasaAries, the Warrior. Here’s where things get really fired up and the Goddess turns up the volume. Uranus, Eris, and Ceres join forces to say “No more!”. Uranus says, “No more status quo.” Then, it throws down unexpected lightning bolts to break up the old patriarchal paradigm and catalyze revolutionary change.

Eris is considered a “dark goddess” like Kali, Black Tara, and Sekhmet. These goddesses can be fierce and wrathful. They don’t take any shit. According to the patriarchal myth, Eris is another “nasty woman”, the Goddess of  Discord. As the story goes, Eris was upset because she wasn’t invited to a party. Feeling snubbed and rejected, she did something that ignited chaos and discord among the party-goers.

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Now, with Eris in the sign of Aries, you can bet she’s pissed off. But here’s a new take on Eris: she’s pissed at the patriarchy for rejecting and trampling on the Divine Feminine. She says, “No more abuse! No more abuse of women. No more abuse of Mother Nature. No more abuse PERIOD.”

Ceres (aka Demeter) is also angry. Her daughter, Persephone, was abducted and raped by Pluto, God of the underworld. Ceres screams, “No more rape of our daughters, our sisters, our mothers! No more rape of the Earth!”  Working together in fiery, passionate, and powerful Aries, Uranus, Eris, and Ceres create a formidable trio of activists.

(4) The fourth point of this Mystic Rectangle brings in the calming influence of Jupiter in Libra. Libra encourages us to seek balance and work toward the peaceful resolution of conflicts. Libra the Peacemaker and Aries the Activist are brought into dialogue by their participation in this Mystic Rectangle, so things won’t get too volatile and chaotic. Libra looks for the win-win. As Bob Marley says, “You can’t have peace without justice.”pallas_athene_fountain_vienna

What can we learn from the integration of all four points of this Full Moon Mystic Rectangle? On the collective level, we are witnessing the reemergence of the Divine Feminine. As she reclaims Her voice, she speaks as the Wise Woman who guides us along pathways to Universal Truth. As she raises her voice in anger at the abuses being perpetrated by the patriarchy, she draws a firm line in the sand. If this line is crossed, She’s ready to wield a sword of protection to stop abuse and end injustice.

On the personal level, the message is to know your truth and speak your truth. Use the power of anger in healthy ways…not to harm others but to set limits on those who would do harm to you. Anger is activating and gives us the courage to say, “No more!” No, you can’t invade my boundaries. No, you can’t disrespect me. No, I won’t give my power away to you. Sometimes we need a spark of anger to motivate us to take action, not just on our own behalf, but to stop injustice in the world and to prevent others from being hurt. In what ways are you being called to action? Take care that your anger doesn’t burn you up or burn you out, so you can maintain balance within yourself.


Soul Contracts and Forgiveness

This article is Part 2 in a series prompted by my second Saturn return and reflections on a painful turning point in my life. In Part 1: Defining Moments, or “How I Lost God and Found My Way” I tell the story of leaving behind the religion of my family lineage to set forth on a solo quest for Truth.

To recap: I was 12 years old when I broke the news to my mother that I didn’t believe in Judaism. At that age, I didn’t have the inner resources to deal with the conflict that followed. I was too afraid to stand up to my mother’s authority when she told me, “You’re too young to know what you think”. This statement hurt me deeply, and in an unconscious attempt to protect myself, I shut down. I held on to my hurt and anger for a very long time, and I saw myself as a victim in this scenario. Now I’m taking a new look at my old story.

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The first glimmering of forgiveness toward my mother came when I began studying astrology. One day, I read about Saturn in Sagittarius (which is where Saturn is in my birth chart). The astrology book said, “People with Saturn in Sagittarius are often born into a family with a dogmatic religious orientation. They need to learn to find their own spiritual path.” I suddenly saw my rejection of Judaism and my conflict with my mother from a cosmic perspective. I saw that it had all been perfectly designed by a higher intelligence for the benefit of my spiritual evolution.

From this perspective, my painful experience was not my mother’s fault. It wasn’t Judaism’s fault. It wasn’t my fault. In fact, it wasn’t a “fault” or a mistake or even a problem. As Byron Katie says, “Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon, nor too late. You don’t have to like it…it’s just easier if you do.”

Astrology taught me that my deeply personal story (being born into a conservative religious family, longing to be close to God, becoming disillusioned, and setting off to find my way, alone) was also the archetypal story of Saturn in Sagittarius’ quest for Truth. I knew intuitively that having Saturn in Sag. was no coincidence. I saw that my soul chose to come into this religious family for a reason. My religious upbringing gave me something to push against, Saturn wall quotewhich gave me the impetus to start searching for another way…a way that would truly feed my spiritual hunger…a way better designed to wake me up…a way that I would need to forge, myself, without an outer authority telling me what to believe or how to express my spirituality.

When I realized that my painful experience had a higher purpose and that on some level I had chosen this experience, it became clear to me that my parents were simply playing the roles assigned to them. They were not against me, they were actually FOR my spiritual evolution (although they weren’t aware of this, consciously). We were all in cahoots in creating and enacting this drama. It was a soul contract between us, and we’d played our parts perfectly. How could there be any blame?

opening door w sunNow there was a huge crack in the solidified and entrenched belief that I was a victim. Through that crack, the light of forgiveness began to filter into my mind. I wish I could tell you that this first light of forgiveness completely dissolved my long-held anger and resentment. Over the years, I’ve worked with forgiveness lessons from A Course in Miracles and The Way of Mastery, I’ve taught others about forgiveness (we teach what we’re learning), and I’ve worked on this with The Work of Byron Katie. I’ve been in psychotherapy and even did a mother-daughter workshop with my Mom, many years ago. All of these things have been helpful, and I still have some forgiving yet to do. For me, forgiveness is many-layered, and I’m still in process.

Understanding that things don’t just happen to us, randomly, and that we have soul contracts with the major players in our lives, helps me accept and value my challenging relationships. I’m curious how this notion of “soul contracts” sits with you. Does it ring true for you, at an intuitive level? Does it affect your ability to forgive? Please leave a comment, below.

Writing this series of articles has prompted me to go deeply within and continue working with my forgiveness process. Click here for Part 3: Four Dimensions of Forgiveness

Click here for Part 4: How I Came Back to God


Who is the Authority on You?

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Consider these scenarios:

  • When a student said “No” to the sexual advances of her teacher, the teacher responded, “You need to learn about spiritual surrender.”
  • After a young woman told her ex-husband that she didn’t want him to come by the house, he yelled, “You’re just reacting out of fear, and fear is an illusion.”
  • A man received an unexpected letter from an angry friend who pointed out all the mistakes the man made in raising his son, and blamed the man for the problems in his son’t life.

As you read these scenarios, it’s probably obvious that there’s a lot of manipulation going on here,  But, in real life, when you’re in the heat of an argument or you need to confront an authority figure, the emotional charge of the situation can cloud your thinking. It can be difficult to see yourself clearly, when someone tries to convince you that they are RIGHT about you…when they claim to be right about everything you’re doing wrong.

Who is the authority on you?  You are!  As Wayne Dyer says, “What other people think of me is none of my business.”

pointing fingerBut what if you get thrown off balance by other people’s judgment or criticism of you?  You might feel especially vulnerable when dealing with someone in a position of authority. For example, if a spiritual leader, a teacher, parent, or someone you consider to be an expert has a negative opinion about you, you might be tempted to value their point of view more than your own. This can also happen with friends, your spouse or partner, or even an enemy.  You might get “hooked” by how they feel about you and how they see you.

If you find yourself going into confusion or self-doubt, and you’re wondering if maybe the other person is

right about their negative perception of you, here are some red flags to watch out for:

Does the person…

  • Use spiritual ideas to make you wrong, shame you, or put you down
  • Analyze your actions and tell you exactly how messed up you are
  • Tell you, directly or indirectly, that you don’t know what you’re talking about
  • Say you shouldn’t be setting the boundaries you’re setting
  • Deny your feelings
  • Claim to know, better than you do, what is best for you
  • Blame you for the pain they are feeling

All of the above are tactics for undermining your sense of your own integrity and inner authority.  Don’t get hooked!

No one can tell you who you should be, what you should believe, or how you should be feeling.

*Please leave a comment and let me know how you keep yourself from getting sucked in to other people’s judgments about you.