Would you rather be right or happy?

When under the influence of the Sagittarius Moon, you may fall into the trap of wanting to be “right” about everything.  If you’re politically minded, you may try to convince everyone that your political opinion is the right one. You could find yourself standing on a soap box, yakking away, with no one listening.  If you’re a spiritual seeker, maybe you think you’ve got the correct spiritual philosophy.  It’s amazing how quickly our minds can shift from being open and accepting to being fiercely dogmatic when someone challenges our beliefs.Smith_Wigglesworth_preaching  If you’re a smarty pants, you want to be right about facts and figures.  You  try to prove that your point of view is the right way to see things.  You’ve probably had Google races with friends and family, to see who is first to get the “right” answer when a question comes up in the midst of casual conversation.

When you win the Google race, or when your friends admit that you were right all along, there can be a feeling of victory.  “I’m right!” But after your little  happy dance is over, what are you left with?  Being right can get in the way of being truly happy, because being “right” assumes that someone else is wrong.  Being right sets up an opposition, which can lead to arguments, judgments, and grievances. Not only does the need to be right create separation between people, it also causes inner tension. What if I’m NOT right?  Then what?

The bottom line is that being self-righteous doesn’t really feel good. Being right is a precarious position. You can be knocked off the top of the hill at any moment, because you actually could be wrong.  Being right calls for constant vigilance and defense of your position. It’s also lonely up there, because it pushes people away. In our rush to be right, we sometimes stumble past the reality of what’s actually true.  You can argue with reality, but reality wins every time.  Being in conflict with reality is very stressful.

What if you don’t know all there is to know?  What if you’re not right about the things that make you miserable?  What if your opinion is just one way of seeing things, and some other perspectives are just as valid?  Being willing to be wrong makes your mind open and supple. It makes room for God’s thoughts.  It makes room for the reality of “What is”, and that’s where peace resides.

Harris_Hawk_in_flight_3_(6022357849)True happiness lies in the mind that knows that it doesn’t know. Happiness is an open mind that is willing to see different points of view, because no one point of view grasps the whole picture.  Only God sees it all, knows it all.  With our limited human perceptions, we can’t absolutley know what should or shouldn’t be happening.  So how can we judge anyone or anything?  It’s not that we shouldn’t judge, it’s that we can’t judge.  And that’s good news!

At this full Moon, the Gemini Sun illuminates the pitfalls of  Sagittarius’ need to be right, and reminds us of  Sag’s desire to be free…free to fly high, and see more and more dimensions of “What is”.  Forget about being right.  Let’s be happy, instead.


Gemini New Moon: Do you have a dirty mind?

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No, I’m not talking about sex. Sex isn’t dirty.  I’m talking about those thoughts in your head that mess you up.  Those thoughts that blind you to your beauty and innocence.  Those thoughts that stress you out.  Today’s Gemini New Moon can help clean up and clear out your dirty thoughts. Let’s move into the new lunar cycle with our minds open wide, letting the spring breeze blow through!

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Hygeia, Goddess of Health Maintenance

Gemini relates to how we think, how we get our information, and how we communicate.  This New Moon in Gemini is soaring through the sky with Hygeia, goddess of health maintenance.  When you put these two together, you get mental (Gemini) hygiene (Hygeia).  Like I said, it’s time to clean up your mind!

In its essence, the mind is like empty space, and Gemini, an air sign, is also spacious. Our thoughts are like clouds that pass through the wide, open space of the mind.  Thoughts arise and pass away. As my friend and teacher Fred Davis likes to say, “We don’t suffer from what we think. We suffer from what we believe.”  That’s because thoughts have a natural fluidity and lightness. If allowed their natural flow, they simply pass through us. But when we believe a thought, that thought becomes fixed, solidified, and it narrows our view  The vast open space of the natural mind gets closed down.  Solidified thoughts get stuck.  They can’t move on through.

We suffer the most when we believe our untrue thoughts.  How can you tell if your thoughts are not true?  One way to tell is if the thought involves shouldas, wouldas, or couldas.  Every “should” is an argument with reality.  Here’s an example: My car died in the middle of an intersection. It was a dark and frigid night, and I was ravenously hungry.  That’s why I was on my way to the store.  But my car died. I had the thought, “This shouldn’t be happening.”  But you know what?  It was happening. I didn’t know why.  I didn’t know how it fit into some Divine plan, but one thing was for sure: I was indeed stuck in the intersection with a dead battery.  When I let go of the thought that it “shouldn’t” be happening, I was able to simply be with the experience, do what needed to be done, and feel more at peace.  Then the cops came, gave my battery a jump, and escorted me home.  It shouldn’t have happened?  It should have happened?  All I know is that it did happen.

Any thought that creates stress, discomfort, or inner conflict is suspect. Any judgment about someone else is worth investigating.  Start by simply asking yourself, “Is the thought really true?”  For example, “Betty Sue is wasting my time.”  Is it true?  Maybe I’m wasting my own time, and that’s why I’m getting pissed at Betty Sue.  “Billy Bob needs to be nicer to me.”  Maybe I need to be more kind to Billy Bob, or maybe I need to be more kind to myself.

If you’re judging and criticizing yourself, those are dirty thoughts, too.  Thoughts like, “I’m not good enough, I’m not smart enough, I’m not _____ enough.” “I should be… getting more done, making more money, being more loving, taking better care of myself…”  If you’re shoulding on yourself, you’ve got a dirty mind.  Our dirty thoughts are not bad, they just cloud our awareness and put us at odds with reality. And when we argue with reality, we lose every time.

Open the doors and windows of your mind.  Welcome in the Gemini New Moon and Hygeia.  Let them help you sweep out your gull in skyuntrue thoughts.  At its best, the Gemini mind is open and curious.  It takes itself lightly and has a great sense of humor. It is like the mind of a curious four-year-old.  Everything is fresh, new, and full of possibility. Things aren’t limited by labels and explanations.  The clean and clear Gemini mind allows thoughts to flow in and out like puffs of cloud moving across a bright blue sky.  The mind is free and can move quickly, like a small bird flitting through the branches.  Let your mind fly beyond the clouds, expanding into the vast, open, unconditioned space that is the mind’s natural state.


Lunar Eclipse & Grand Cross: Rocking the Boat

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Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream…merrily, merrily…Whoops!

The currents are pretty strong, these days, and your boat may be getting rocked…or maybe it’s time for you to rock the boat. A lunar eclipse, with Moon in Libra and Sun in Aries, unfolds in the wee hours of the morning on April 15.  A few days later, there’s a cardinal Grand Cross (Uranus in Aries opposite Mars in Libra and Pluto in Capricorn opposite Jupiter in Cancer).  This is not the time to hold on to the status quo, especially if these Grand Cross planets are connecting with significant points in your chart.*  These powerful energies present an opportunity to take action, and create a whole new level of harmony. Let’s explore what rocking the boat can do for you:

Rocking the Self

  • Have you been playing small?  You may feel stirred up, because you need to claim your power, take a bold action, or step into a leadership role.
  • Is there something about yourself you just can’t run away from anymore?  Be courageous in facing your shadow.
  • Your True Self is way more than your personality. Inquire into your deepest nature. Explore the question, “What am I?”

Rocking Your Relationships

  • Speak your truth about what you need. If that brings up conflict, be willing to communicate and find a “win-win” resolution.
  • Have you been letting someone take advantage of you, disrespect you, or bully you?  It’s time to say, “No more!”
  • Is the form of your relationship no longer serving your mutual growth?  It’s possible to change the form and keep the love.

Rocking the World

  • Sustainable peace can only be built on a foundation of fairness and equal sharing of power.  Stand up for what is just.
  • If the world is rocking around you, whether it’s earth changes or political upheaval, you can still keep your inner peace.

In each of these scenarios, there are actions you can take, or changes you can make, that can lead to greater harmony.  When we make changes that bring us more in line with ourselves, we create more harmony within. When we stand up for ourselves, even if it brings up conflict, it ultimately makes our relationships more balanced. And when we work for justice, and respond to chaos from a place of inner peace, we create more harmony in the world.  So go ahead, rock the boat, baby!

 

*At the time of the eclipse, the Moon will be at 25 degrees Libra and the Sun at 25 degrees Aries.  The Grand Cross involves planets at 13 degrees of the Cardinal signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, and Capricorn).  If you have placements in your natal chart between 8 and 30 degrees, in any of the cardinal signs, you are significantly influenced by the current astrology.  You may find it helpful to have an astrology consultation to clarify what actions you can take that will create more harmony in your life.


Virgo Full Moon: Are You 100% Pure?

When you think of Virgo and the word “virgin”, don’t think about sex.  Think “virgin olive oil” or “virgin forest”.  These virgins are in their natural state of wholeness. They are “100% pure”, which means that nothing was added, and nothing was removed.  In astrology, the archetype of Virgo is about helping us get back to our essential wholeness.

At the Virgo Full Moon, we get to experience the energies of both Virgo and it’s opposite sign, Pisces. Virgo, an earth sign, is concerned with wholeness at the physical level. It clearly sees the boundaries that separate one thing from another, and is quite skilled at figuring out “What’s wrong with this picture?”. That type of discerning vision sees what might has been added that doesn’t belong, and what  has been taken away, that should be there. Virgo sorts, clears the clutter, cleans things up, and gets us organized.

ocean mistPisces, being the polar opposite of Virgo, does not see any boundaries between things.  In fact, it doesn’t see “things”.  Pisces is aware of Oneness.  It sees that all appearances arise and pass away within the vast cosmic ocean of our one shared Being.  There is no separate self.  Nothing is wrong with any picture.  Everything and everyone is perfect just as it is.  It couldn’t be  any  other way.  Pisces’ vision shows us our wholeness and perfection at the spiritual  level.  We see ourselves as 100% pure spirit.

While Virgo strives to fix and improve things, Pisces accepts everything just as it is and embraces all with unconditional love. How can we bring the two sides of this polarity together and make sense of this paradox? 

One way to understand this paradox is to consider that we are Divine Humans: our being is both spiritual and physical.  We are complete and perfect, spiritually, AND, on the physical level, there are always some things to clean up or improve upon.  After enlightenment, we still need to do the dishes and take out the trash.  Pisces helps us to know who we really are, in our spiritual essence. Virgo keeps our bodies and our physical environment healthy, wholesome, and in order.  

Sometimes, Virgo’s desire for wholeness gets distorted into perfectionism, and we can become critical of every little flaw.  Pisces offers a balance by helping us remember the true perfection of our spiritual nature.  We can let go of trying to control and fix everything. We can accept ‘what is’, even if the personality self can’t see how it could possibly be ok. With an attitude of compassion toward ourselves, we can use the discernment of Virgo to clear out false beliefs that make us think that something is wrong.  The Work of Byron Katie is a great tool for cleaning up our untrue thoughts so we can love ‘what is’.

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On this Virgo Full Moon, may you realize there’s nothing wrong with you.

May you clear the clutter with an attitude of compassion and truly letting go.

May your accept your virginity…your purity…your wholeness.

And may you forgive any typos in this post!


Stumbling into “Now”

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I stumbled upon the “Now” a few days ago.  You know how elusive “now” can be.  One minute you’re trying to be present, and the next thing you know, your mind is somewhere else and time just kept moving right on by.  This moment quickly becomes the past. “Now” seems to slip right through your fingers like the sands of an hourglass.

Here’s the secret:  The “Now” is not in time.  It has nothing to do with time.  It’s completely outside of time. You could call it the “Eternal Now”…but then the word “eternal” tends to put us right back in the paradigm of time.  “Now” is actually “no time”…or “timeless”.

You can tell the difference between time and the “Now” because one moves and the other doesn’t.  Time moves. It never stops moving. You can see it go by as you watch the second hand of a clock race around in endless circles. That’s why it’s so elusive. It never stands still long enough for you to catch it.  You can’t dig in your heels and slow the wheels of time. The earth keeps spinning on its axis and continuously does a circle dance around the sun. “Time passes on like a river that must always run”.

In contrast, the “Now” doesn’t move. It doesn’t go anywhere. It has no past and no future. It’s not linear.  It has no shape, location, or direction. All of our experiences within time pass through the “Now”.  All of the dramas and dreams of the separate self are passing through what never moves, never changes, and can never be lost or diminished.

Can you feel it?  It’s very subtle.

I stumbled into the “Now” during a particularly crazy week. The following question spontaneously arose in my mind: “What is all of this craziness passing through?”  And then I saw it…felt it…I was it…the “Now”.  It’s like the light on a movie projector…the images of the movie are revealed and seem to flow in a seamless stream as the film moves past the projector bulb.  But the bulb, the light itself, remains still. It doesn’t change and isn’t affected by the images of the movie.  It remains as light…continuously shining.

After I realized that “Now” is outside of time, I started thinking about Ram Das’ famous book, “Be Here Now”.  I began contemplating those words…one by one.

Those three simple words took on new meanings once I realized that “Now” has nothing to do with time.  I also saw that “Here” has nothing to do with a specific location on the planet. “Here” is actually “Spaciousness” itself.

Be=I am

Here=Spaciousness

Now=No Time

That’s my true identity!  “I am spacious no-time.”

And so are you!

 

 


Pisces New Moon: Dissolving into One

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DISSOLVING INTO ONE

I am not my body.  I am not my personality.

 I am Oneness.  Unlimited.  Vast.  Spacious.  Beyond time.

Beyond words.

Flowing with the love of God.  Expressing the power of creation.

The small “me” arises as a wave in the ocean of One.

And dissolves into One.

I Am.

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forgivenessFORGIVENESS

 When the small “me” forgets

And dreams a dream of separateness

Soon comes the thought:

Someone did the other wrong

Then grievances collect like souvenirs

Piles of blame

Loads of guilt

Yet when we look again and see

The separate me’s unreality

The one who harmed and

The one who’s hurt

Both dissolve

Into

One

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TRUST

Don’t try to trust

Don’t put your trust

Outside you

Know trust as your nature

You are the One

Seeing the perfect tapestry of what is

Each thread in place

 


Do…Be…Do…Be…Do

I recently did an informal survey of some friends and clients and asked:

What is your biggest challenge when it comes to living your spiritual beliefs in your everyday life?

Several of them had a similar answer:

“It’s difficult to stay attuned to my spiritual self while going about my daily tasks.”

They felt caught by their habitual personas and roles, and they got distracted by the demands of their jobs, caring for family, managing a household, and so on.

Is that true for you, too?  Do you find that all the doing of daily life seems to get in the way of simply being?

I used to think the answer was to find a balance.  Do…Be…Do…Be…Do.  Finding balance is a good place to start, but it’s not the whole enchilada.  When we take more time for being…when we meditate, breathe deeply, or sit quietly in nature…it can help us slow down, and calm the monkey-mind.  We can experience moments of peace and feel our connection to Spirit.  Those times of retreat allow us to re-enter the doing with more clarity and centeredness.woman meditating

At some point, we again find ourselves lost in doing.  Again we forget  our very Being, having fallen back into the collective trance of separation consciousness.  What I mean by the “collective trance” is that we’ve all been conditioned to believe that we are separate…separate from each other…separate from God…that we are isolated units of doing-ness, doing our best to survive here on the planet.  When we’re asleep in separation consciousness, we feel cut off from our Being.

Let’s take another look at the idea of balancing Do…Be…Do…Be…Do.  There’s a tricky little lie hiding in this seemingly beautiful notion of balance.  The false idea is that being and doing are separate but equal..that they’re on the same playing field…but they’re not. Action and rest are two sides of a polarity, and we can swing back and forth between them.  But when we talk about being and doing, we’re really talking about Being (with a capital “B”).  Our Being is our True Nature…our essence.  That’s what’s primary.yin yang.being

Our Being doesn’t swing back and forth or turn on and off.  Our Being is always present.  Being is what we are.  So, here’s the key to the Do-Be-Do dilemma:  Recognize that all doing arises within Being.  Take a moment and read that again.

Doing arises within Being.

Our Beingness is constant.  It doesn’t come and go.  It’s actually the doingness that comes and goes.  Periods of activity alternate with times of rest.  The doingness arises as a temporary state within the eternal, changeless presence of  Being.  Being embraces all and allows all.  It surrounds and permeates all doings.  It’s not called “the ground of being” for nothing!  It is the ground. It may seem to be in the background…or completely hidden…but it’s actually what’s most real about you!  Being is not something we do, when we sit and meditate.  Being is our true identity.  This is what spiritual awakening is all about: Remembering our true identity…waking up to our Being.

Have you heard the old saying…

“Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.  After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.”

That is a clever way of saying that there will always be things to do.  Even after we awaken and see our True Nature, the dirty clothes still need washing, the kids need to go to gymnastics, the floors need sweeping, and the job still has deadlines to meet.  The question is “Who’s doing the doing?”  woman sweeping.van goghAre you really the small, separate self, just getting things done?  Is it the little character of your personality-self, sweeping the floor like Cinderella?

Or is the floor being swept in the presence of your Being?

As for the old song, Do Be Do Be Do, let it sing!  It’s natural for our attention to oscillate.  Our Being doesn’t switch on and off, but our awareness of Being is sometimes bright and sometimes dim, depending on what we’re giving attention to.  Not to worry.  Whenever you remember, remember. Whenever you forget, that’s ok, because your Being can’t be lost.  When you go to sleep at night and dream wild dreams, aren’t you still you when you wake up in the morning?  It’s the same thing when we dream that we’re separate.  Our True Nature is not lost or diminished in any way.

So, what can you do about Being?  Certain activities do tend to support the remembrance of our True Nature.  Yup, this brings us full circle…right back to meditating, breathing, being in nature, or engaging any practices that help us let go.   When we relax the “Doer”, the “Fixer”, and the “Controller”, it’s easier to sense our Being.  When we quiet the ego’s chatter, the still small voice becomes more noticeable.

Remember: Action and rest both arise within your Being.  One is not better than the other.  They are complimentary aspects of life. Trust that even in the midst of concentrated doing, even during times of deep forgetfulness, Being is present.  It is the PRESENCE. Whether it’s in the background or the foreground of your attention, your Being is always there, embracing all, allowing all.  You might sense it in the little gap between exhale and inhale, you may glimpse it between one thought and the next, or maybe you’ll notice your spaciousness reflected in the wide open sky above you. You might smile to yourself, and silently acknowledge the vastness of your Being, in which all things arise and fade away.

Please leave a comment and let me know if this was helpful to you.

Did it answer some of your questions?

Did it raise more questions?

What are some ways that you notice your Being, in the midst of daily life?

I appreciate your feedback!

                           Sajit


Leo Full Moon: May I Have This Dance?

 

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Part I:  Leo Wonders

Can you see me?

Can I see myself?

Can I free myself?

Who is doing the looking?

A cool and distant observer?

Or an unconditional, accepting, spaciousness?

Shining radiance

Appreciating her own Divine light

Not giving a damn

That’s freedom!

Part II:  Aquarius Watches

Aquarius stands apart

Breathing to her own drumbeat

Hesitant to join the dance

Leo’s infectious joy

Captivates and seduces

Come play!

There are no steps

There are no rules

Express your funky self!


Opening to Aquarius: Great Space

Big sky over Taos, New Mexico, reflects the spaciousness of Being.

Big sky over Taos, New Mexico, reflects the spaciousness of Being.

One of my favorite things about living in New Mexico is the big sky.  Seeing this vast space all around and above me is a constant reminder of the spaciousness of my Being.  Well, it’s not really “my” Being, it’s Being, itself.  Your Being…our Being…Being.  Who we are is way more than our bodies.  We can’t be contained by the body.  We’re too big for that!  Even our thoughts are too small for who we really are.  The mind, too, is like a big open space, in which thoughts arise and evaporate, like clouds moving through the wide open sky.  Have you ever watched as a cloud floated above you, high in the sky, and then dissolved into space?  Our thoughts are just like that: ephemeral and insubstantial.  Although we think of our bodies as solid and dense, physics tells us that “solid” matter is mostly space.  So, on this Aquarius New Moon, I’m celebrating spaciousness…will you join me?

The archetype of Aquarius (an air sign) can help us attune to our True Nature, which is spacious, unlimited, transparent, open, free, deep, and empty.  You could also say that our True Nature is “Love”, or “Peace”, or “Pure Awareness”.  Each of these descriptors is a way of pointing at our True Nature.  But no words, and certainly no one word, can truly describe our Being.  It is beyond words.  For now, let’s invite the Aquarius energy to enhance our awareness of ourselves as “space”.  I’m not talking about “give me space”, I’m talking about “I am space”!

Here’s a short breathing meditation, for the Aquarius New Moon:

Take a breath.  Fill your lungs with air, and feel the expansion of your inner space.

Take another breath and imagine you are breathing into every cell of your body.

Now, imagine that when you breathe in, the breath comes in through the front surface of your body. The exhale can flow out through the back surface of your body.

Sense your entire body as permeable, with the breath coming in and out, through all of the surfaces of your body.

As you “watch” the breath flow in and out, allow it to dissolve your body boundaries.

Now there is simply “breathing”.  No container.  No walls.  No “inside” and “outside”.  Just breathing.

Allow your sense of self to be the wide open space in which the breathing is happening.

Be the space.  Be spacious.  Simply Be.

Ahhhhh……

 

Want to do more Space exploration?  Here are some resources:

HAPPY NEW MOON!


Seeking and Finding

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The ego’s prime dictate is, “Seek, but do not find.”  What a perfect recipe for eternal frustration!  While the ego, or  “false self”,  looks through false eyes, it cannot see what’s right in front of it’s face and behind it’s own eyes.  What the ego is after is always right around the corner.  It leads us on the proverbial quest to find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and leaves us empty handed.

As a spiritual seeker, how can you find the Truth and Liberation you seek?  First, stop identifying as a “spiritual seeker” and choose to be a “finder”.  Accept the idea that you can and will find what your heart and soul are longing to experience.

Next, fire that darn ego as your guide.  It will only lead to one dead end after another.

Who or what, then, shall be the guide?  The guides to Truth and Liberation are many.  Spiritual teachers, both living and dead, spirit guides, angels, ascended masters, the Holy Spirit, God, intuition, Mother Nature, animal and plant spirits, the Still Small Voice, within…any and all of these guides can be very helpful.  Yet, they do not really take you anywhere, for your Being is always, already fully present, right where you are.  moon over sunset cloudsThese teachers and guides, with their fingers pointing at the moon, can’t give you the moon nor fly you there.  No one can give you what you already are.  True guides are more like really good friends who can clearly see who you are…as well as who you aren’t…and always remind you of your True Nature…our shared True Nature.

True guides are also able to give you tools or practices that help thin the veil that the false self is wrapped up in.  One of the most powerful tools is inquiry, which simply means “questioning”.  Remember those bumper stickers that say, “Question Authority”?  Well, question the authority of those voices in your head.  When thoughts arise that make you feel guilty or worthless or afraid, look straight at them and ask, “Is it true?”  Byron Katie has developed a simple, elegant tool for inquiry called “The Four Questions”.

Another effective form of inquiry is to deeply consider, “Who am I?” or “What am I?”  Although at first glance, those may seem like ridiculous questions, the process can take you to the very truth of your Being.  Contemporary teacher, Adyashanti, clearly describes how to engage in “Authentic Inquiry”.  Through this process, the veil can dissolve, and your radiant Self shines forth.   Fortunately, inquiry doesn’t require that you subscribe to any religious beliefs, perform rituals, or sit for long periods of meditation.  It does require a fierce determination to sincerely investigate  the thoughts, beliefs, opinions, and habitual perspectives that are limiting your awareness of “What Is”.

One more ingredient to the recipe for “finding” is to be as compassionate and accepting of yourself as you can be.  Using the inner sledgehammer to beat yourself up for not being spiritual enough, not being awake enough, not loving enough, or not being able to see clearly enough, is a sure-fire way to NOT liberate yourself.  Of course it’s nice to be compassionate and accepting of others, but it’s also important to practice on yourself.  You’re always there to practice on!  Softening into self-compassion will hasten clarity of vision.

Do you need to go to India to find Truth?  Do you need to meditate for 30 years?  Do you need to follow Jesus?  Do you need to understand complicated spiritual philosophies?

Maybe…if that is part of your journey…if that is part of what draws you back to what is always, already here.
taos mtn in clouds 1Yet, truly, there is nowhere to go.  You’ve been found.  Your Being could never lose you, nor could your Being ever be lost.  It was simply overlooked, masked by a veil that seemed impenetrable.  You’ve been looking through the false eyes of the false self and seeing what’s not there.  The mountain, obscured by the clouds, still stands secure in it’s nature.  You are that amazing, beautiful, everlasting mountain.  Your True Self stands secure, changeless, and limitless…and it’s actually in plain sight…for those with eyes to see.  I trust you.  You can see it!